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I'm married to the most wonderful man in the world, and I have a beautiful stepson that I love with all my heart.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

How Do People Live With Themselves?

I can't stop thinking about the poor man who died from being trampled by customers rushing to buy sale items at a Wal-Mart in New York.  It makes me sick thinking about the people who just walked over this man and left him there, and the people who became irate when the store was closed.  What has happened to people?  Why are people so thoughtless and cruel?

This was not my first reminder of this fact, of course; however, this just hit me in the gut, considering the season.  This poor man will not be with his family EVER AGAIN because some people were so crazed to save money on a flat-screen TV or a Wii.  Ridiculous and so, so sad.

I guess it just really hit home because this year has been so lean financially, and we're only going to be able to buy for our little boy this year.  We've asked everyone not to buy for us because a) we don't need anything and b) we cannot reciprocate.  But you know, it doesn't even matter. This is the first holiday season in a long, long time where my heart is so full that I feel rich beyond belief.  I have found a peace and contentment that was never there before, I have forgiven people who hurt me (and I mean TRULY forgiven), and my soul is in a place I never thought I'd find.  I have a darling husband who means the world to me, and he feels the same way.  My family has more than doubled, and I'm so grateful to have them all...especially my little guy. 

There may be no presents under the tree this year, but they'll not be missed.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

The world is looking a little better...

I'm back.
For now, anyway.
I can't say all is well, but it's getting better.
There was a point in time, not so long ago, where I thought that I was going to lose it completely, but I took a step back, took a deep breath, found some help, and turned back to God, which I hadn't done in a long time, I'm sad to say.  It's not that I lost my faith in him, it's that I lost faith in myself...faith, confidence, all that stuff.

With the help of some great new friends, my wonderful husband, and my renewed faith, I'm on my way back.

The first step was hard; it always is when you're in a pit.  However, as many of us know, you have to hit bottom sometimes before you can head back up.

Here's to step one of one million...

If you pray, I ask that you pray He sends me a little more strength to get me through the journey.